A MAN Gets raped by another AA member, Midtown Group, Atlantic Group of Alcoholics Anonymous

This is a tragic story, yet all over the country this is occurring. This is one mans story.

Why I Left Alcoholics Anonymous

It’s never easy to leave an organization you called a second home. To say goodbye to your friends and everything I knew is rather difficult. But on the 10th of July of this year, I made the bold statement of walking out the door and never looking back. The question is why?

Dispite what many will tell you about Alcoholics Anonymous, the organization in and of itself is in fact a philosophy religious in nature. As a matter of fact and public record, many courts across this country have indeed deemed it to be a religion in and of itself. While it has been a longstanding tradition and legal precedent to sentence those afflicted with alcoholism to Alcoholics Anonymous, many who do not fall within the DSM definition of Alcohol Dependency use the patented “I’m an alcoholic” defense to avoid harsher sentencing for crimes they comitt.

The man who raped me was one of those men.

(While I will not use his actual name in an effort to not give him any more attention, I will merely use the pronouns “he” “him” and “his” when discussing his crimes.)

In 2009, he was facing charges of agratived sexual battery. Facing a rather lengthy sentence, his lawyer summised that given the fact that he had been drunk while comitting this crime, he not only previously stated that he had not had issues with alcohol dependency in the past, he managed to avoid 5 years in jail by going along with the “I have a problem” and hence was sentenced to 3 years of probation, 3 years of mandated attendance at Alcoholics Anonymous meetings and 3500 hours of sexual addicition counseling.

When I sobered up in 2011, I had relocated to Washington DC in an effort to sober up. Having previously attended meetings in New York City, I was convinced that maybe a geographic wouldn’t be such a bad idea. After contacting the AA hotline in Washingston DC, I was directed to go to a meeting called Midtown, which was very similiar to the meeting I attended in New York. It was there that I met the man who, three weeks into my sobriety would alter the course of my life.

At first, he seemed rather harmless and quite the man about “AA campus”, who seemed to know everyone. And given that I was in desperate need of guidance, I found it helpful that he had relapsed often but was sure that he found vital and permanent sobriety in AA. But there were signs that something was rather off about him.

For instance, one time he exposed his genitals to me while urinating in a soda can. Considering I was from New York, at first it didn’t seem that bizarre. Looking back in hindsight, the fact that he informed me that he enjoyed getting punched in the head while engaging in unprotected sex should have been a big warning sign. But again, I gave him a pass after realizing that as I was told at Midtown, “Questioning your sponsor is a sure fire sign of wanting to relapse” and considering I wanted to stay sober, I did what was asked.

On November the 6th of 2011 would be the day that would change my life forever. I was completing what those in the AA program call a 4th step, which is a step geared towards allowing a person to see fault in his own behaviour towards others. Considering I didn’t have a place to stay that night, he allowed me to stay with him which I found a little odd but I went with him knowing that he had a roommate.

The following day, I woke up and discovered that I was not only bleeding but bleeding from anus which never happened before. While he did take me to the hospital, he started to tell me that if I told anyone what happened that no one would believe a white trash hooker like me.

Upon arriving at the hospital, I not only needed stitches to repair what he had done, I surpressed the anger that was emerging and began to deny the inevitable:

That this man who was supposed to be a safe person in AA had raped me.

After the hospital visit, things began to change very differently for the both of us. I became paranoid and scared (I would soon start shaking uncontrollably) and after two more months, finally broke free of this guy after he told me that if I told anyone what he did that he’d find me and slit my throat. He, until a few months ago, began an aggravated harassment campaign that eventually stopped after I went to the Federal Court building in Manhattan to a restraining order (he is currently incarcerated in a Federal prison for drug related charges hence the reason why I filed the restraining order in Federal Court)

Now you would find your thinking, well if he is in jail why not continue going to AA?

I did attend meetings after that but, considering what happened and what came after (3 years of panic attacks, shaking uncontrollably (which I don’t do today thank God) and 190 emails from him telling me that he is gonna slit my throat, kill me, and informimg me that I am a white trash faggot who will never have a loving family or friends)), I have discovered that I am not the only one who has suffered from this type of abuse but a mulitude of others as well.

For many many years, I prayed to have God remove my shaking and my panic attacks as I was told to do by a man who was my third and final sponsor) and after continuing to have suffered from them, on the 10th of July of this year, I not only walked away from AA but from that day forward, i haven’t experienced any panic attacks at all.

I left because I needed to finally learn how to live. When one spends nearly 4 years being traumized, I realized that the only thing AA taught me how to do well is to be an obident member of the flock.

I wanted more out of my life!

So today, I get to do just that, LIVE. Live without having to watch my back all the time but most importantly finally do what I couldn’t for years out of hiding a secret,

BREATHE!

https://thereevolutionofgregoryjamesbroderick.wordpress.com/2016/08/25/why-i-left-alcoholics-anonymous/

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Well …here we go again. Will it ever end? The flagrant promoting of this AA crap. OMG— Just look at the list…

Why is Hollywood so filled with steppers? Is it that Actors and Singers are so desperate for a job and a gig they will do anything to please people?

I am not sure. I wonder when will the tide turn? I heard it has, but come on. ..

I wish I could go to protest. Maybe we can plan a protest for another time…next year. We can protest against AA promotion through this vehicle in each of our cities >>>>>Not sure but …it does make me mad to see how infested AA is everywhere in America.

Its sickening.  I think I need to go out and see a concert by a singer who drinks !!!

https://www.facingaddiction.org/

The list of famous people who are going https://www.facingaddiction.org/supporters/event-host-committee

Rachel Bernstein-Wednesday- August 5th- on Blog Talk Radio – Safe Recovery – Expert Cult Deprogrammer and Therapist!

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STAY Tuned. This coming Week on Blog Talk Radio SAFE RECOVERY.

Wednesday- August 5 @ 2:30pm. 1 Hour LIVE show with Cult Deprogramming Expert from Los Angeles, CA will be my Guest.

I am so happy to finally have found an expert and a trained therapist who really knows her stuff. We have talked…and it is amazing to find a person who is trained  in this field.

I know many people have asked me over the years to find someone like Rachel. SO finally we have !!! Thanks to a new friend Michele, my roommate up in Big Sur!

The Pacific Group, The Atlantic Group, Midtown and Toxic Meetings within Alcoholics Anonymous.

I was a member of the Malia Discussion Group in Hawaii from 1976 – 1983 when I moved away and came to California. After Harry Lake, ( the co-founder) AA Hawaii Delegate,  died, things really changed and many women were  no longer lovely dovey to Mary Lake his long time wife and partner in life. They were two fabulous Hawaiian oldtimers-AA people that I knew like family. monica_harry_age21

Big Richard is on my left and Harry is to my right. After Mary  died the meeting felt apart. In AA when the leader dies, so does the meeting. This is very true with big meetings. The Malia Discussion Group held on Thursday nights from 8-9:30 pm, began in Kalihi in 1976. It was held in a Community Center, near the Kalihi Palama Settlement. There  were eight of us. I was the youngest member of the group. Everyone else was over 40 I think…. I was 19. We soon moved into a High School Cafeteria at Kalakaua High School in a very local poor Hawaiian neighborhood located in Honolulu.

The group blossomed over a short time to over 200 people attending. No meeting on the island was this active and well attended. The format was after a 10-15 minute share, we divided up into 10 tables, with 10 leaders ( you had to be a home group member to be a leader) , and we spent the reast of the meeting talking. This way everyone got time to talk. Great idea we all thought, and it was.

Once a month was birthday night and all the birthday people got on stage to share.

This was my home group for years. We held Busniess meetings every month or as needed and we had many great group discussions. I thought all good meetings in AA were run this way.

There is a post over on the fix that is talking about …

Here is the link …http://www.thefix.com/content/cult-aa-Atlantic-Group-Clancy-Pacific-Group-London-Joys2092?page=all

I think that the groups that PG has influenced are some of the worst meetings in AA and it’s culture. I agree that the smaller meetings were always better. Creeps hide in bigger meetings because they can.

We will see….

Here is how it could play out. I finally realized this , thanks to my assistant Val, who is also a coordinator for a small Art Museum here is Los Angeles, It was because of her training with the volunteers that we put two and two together.

 

 

Suing Alcoholics Anonymous, your “EAP” employer, 12 step rehabs and your Insurance Company that pays for a religious 1930’s never updated peer support groups. No Mental Heath and NO real Health Care provided there ma, so whats the deal? What can you do?

Is AA like a wind up  phone circa 1930’s…oldphone1930

and Smart Recovery is like an IPHONE.

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Why in America are we so stuck back then, when it  comes to addiction, alcoholic overuse and dependency? At first I thought AA just grew as a grassroots organization. I thought that because the readings at AA meetings and the folklore that is perpetuated in meetings, makes one think that. Our TV  shows like “MOM”momtv show pic

and FILMS like “FLIGHT”

flightpicwith Denzel Washington   promotes it all flagrantly like its sweet cookies and milk support group that is run by professionals  and  secular, which we all know is not true! …

so hear is the thread you have requested….:)

Hi.  Have you been coerced or bullied into AA? Are you a Doctordrsmokingpic

or a pilot? AA was formulated when cigarettes were promoted as being good for us as we see here in this ad. Well, is AA still good for the masses? Never updated, never researched  or never vetted? For 75 years…

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I have just come back from interviewing a Pilot and a Doctor.  I was so shocked I had a hard time watching the footage when I got home. I got up from my desk, went downstairs and told my husband it was too depressing…I could not handle it …how sad he is…. Thank God my editor is more detached! LOL Thanks … Barry RUBINOW.

The coercion within the FAA and pilots is so fucked up that it broke my heart. This pilot /doctor was so sad that I have no words for what I felt from him. We could not film him in the light and we will have to pitch his voice for fear that he will be so retaliated upon and loss his license.

Things are very bad when the FAA is sending you to an AA psychiatrist who is called a something …blah blah medical Sponsor with some silly other word preceding it. They charge $1,500. for one session. There are only 2 of them in Northern Cali. They force the pilots to go to an expensive $40,000 bullshit rehab called HAZELTON !!!!!!! filled with stepper shit….OMFG!

I want you to know this….You are not alone. There is an attorney who can help you. Please contact me for now and we  will begin to see how to handle all the emails.  makeaasafer@gmail.com

Please go to ask it .com and type in “Is Alcoholics Anonymous a Cult” etc….lets get the Search Engines ROARING!!!

lightbulb picToday on MSNBC I watched a piece about what people type into “ask it .com” ….So lets do it. GO there and ask every question  you want.

 

for example:

Is AA a Cult?

Is AA dangerous for woman and teens?

Is AA run by a professional?

Is AA safe?

Questions for now…. try and write out AA …like this ….

type “alcoholics anonymous” and lets see what we come up with.

www.ask.com   I just went there and typed in  ” Is Alcoholics anonymous filled with sexual predators? ” It led me to both my blogs Leaving AA and Stop13stepinaa as well as some other good anti AA sites.